more food. more dreams.

so the past few days i've been telling you about weird dreams and my weird living habits lately. i'm up again at 4.09am because i was awoken by my stomach growling. again. for the third night in a row always around this time. i should start leaving pre-made snacks downstairs before i go to sleep so i just have to run downstairs, grab it and eat. at least i was lucky this time. still had some of the carrot cake i baked yesterday. by the way, if anyone wants some, let me know. don't know why i made it. don't like carrots. i guess i just wanted to bake and the long devils were the first things i saw. it was rather good, actually. i did a good job. patted myself on the back, too and said "thanks shane" very quietly so my mom won't hear. my mom hears everything more so when she's sleeping. i was still hungry so i went back downstairs and had two english muffins with butter. so good. i also have some italian soup that i made which was great considering i freestyled it and didn't use any assistance from any outside resource. i hi-fived myself for that one, too. you should come over and try some. it's real good. all organic, too. why? that's all my mom buys these days. if i want `man food' or junk, i got to buy it myself. it's not like we don't eat healthy. i do. she does, but she wants to eat even more healthy. it's good but sometimes, you need to spoil yourself.

see, when i'm at home i have from 5-10 glasses of juice a day plus i live on fruits and veggies. mostly apples, tomatoes, oranges, and raspberries and cucumbers. when i make a pasta or anything dinner type dish, i use minimal oil and try to spice it up with mostly with healthy stuff. furthermore, i hardly pig out on candy nor chocolate anymore. been like that for a couple of years now. so when i want something fatty or just so bad for you it's so good, i think i'm entitled to it.

don't ya think?

mcdonalds burger. a double cheeseburger from harveys. doritos. a large coffee from tim's. new york fires or manchu wok or even dairy queen's banana split. ok. i'll stop. i'll cause up stomach chaos once again.

so i had anther dream tonight about a girl i dreamed about two nights back. the girl who was on the bed who wanted my glasses. yeah, her. anyway, this time she was with my cousins and we were in this room. we were getting ready to go out. it looked like we were in a community center. there's a bunch of tables around us and also some games. suddenly everyone is starting to brush their teeth. but my cousins aren't brushing their own teeth. they're friend is for them. and not with toothpaste, either. it's something else. suddenly this friend is starting to brush my own teeth with this unknown substance. i'm trying to talk to her, but she's not responding. finally after a few minutes we start to have a conversation. i then ask her if she can brush my teeth again but this time use tooth paste. i guess i didn't trust that other stuff and thought that the toothpaste would cancel out the potentially harmful stuff on my teeth. so she does. we start talking and laughing together. we make plans and how i'll sleep over. she then drifts away. and i wake up..


hungry.